.little daylight.

sticky nighttime, millions of crickets in the dark. flickering lights on the porch above my computer. the smell of insect repellent all over my skin. bites still covering much of me. new home. i wonder what God has planned for this time? i thought i had come with very little expectation, lots of expectancy. i'm finding that i may have created quite a number of wispy castles in my imagination about this time. mostly aware of those expectations as i meet up with slightly-off reality to compare them to. beautiful moments. lots of community life. lots of asking for patience and forgiveness. is this really the context in which we were told to love one another? to let on about our grounding through how we treat one another and intentionally think towards & about one another? maybe i'll add a post first after a good night sleep & cold shower. maybe i need to post right in the midst of all the moments. transparency...